Also conciously used Jung's Active Imagination tecnique. I'm vigorously walking up the side of a mountain. I've been on a quest to find true love. I encounter a massive wooden door in the side of the mountain. As I examine the door I'm completely amazed by the beauty and complexity. It was very intricate carvings of plants and animals woven in with gods and goddesses from all different sources. The door upon inspection is really a wooden panel there is no handle or apparent way in. I can even finally examine the edges of the panel and see a metal band there's not even a fraction of an inch leeway between the sculpt the door the metal band that surrounds it in the Stone. I'm an examining away in intellectually. I imagine beams of light coming from my eyes Illuminating the door and allowing me to be very thorough in my investigation. I know what is behind the door is unlimited Universal love. Is also readily apparent to me there is no way in for me. I've made...
"Whether I shall turn out to be the hero of my own life, or whether that station will be held by anybody else, these pages must show." Charles Dickens "Extreme Balance" Nathan Steel So this is my first streaming consciousness entry. I'm already frustrated but really I don't feel that frustrated. I did 20 or more minutes of dictating it was all lost. Technology often sucks. So the whole idea is to be spontaneous a little hard when I'm tempted to repeat what I just did but I think I'll just start from now. Right now Rory is at my feet apprehensive about the 4th of July doesn't like the explosions. Likely from a childhood trauma that I imposed on him while watching fireworks in Saranac Lake. Parent induced trauma. How typical. Is Random as always my mind picks up a thread and makes it directly relevant. Fear is currently at the center of my life. I have purposely put myself in a place where fear is somewhere between likely and inevitable. After bei...